Forgiveness

One of the greatest gift in life is to learn how to forgive.

Forgiving is the act of giving in and letting go of a certain strong feeling that you held. At least that's what it feels like to me. I don't know to be humored by this, or cry. This act of forgiveness sounds so easy, yet.. it's probably one of the hardest things a human being has to do in my eyes. Because to forgive, it comes with the words forget. In my eyes, if you forgive someone, and not forget it, you're never truly forgiving them. You're still holding something, a small piece of that will always be with you. It's not a clean piece of meat that you can cut away and toss if you choose to ever do so.

Today, while laying in the grass on the hill at the quad of my school, with 6th period almost half done, I see a girl. A girl, one from my past, one that I had swore to always remember no matter how long it was. She's changed, and certainly I have changed. She was someone who I felt disgusted with knowing the pains and troubles she caused myself in my younger days. But looking at her today, hearing that she has a wedding in two weeks, and soon due in May with her baby...I just can't find the hate in me. I couldn't stand her back then, I probably still can't now, but somehow, I still wish she finds that happiness.

Everyone deserves to be happy, depending on what mistakes they have made in their lifetime. Young girls do stupid things. Human beings are suckers to being stupid. And I wonder, with the other people in my life, when will I get a chance to look at them, and come to terms with myself. Terms stating, it's time to let go & forgive. And simply to lose those memories. They seem so hard and unbelievable now. But after seven years, and I'm able to come at peace and silently wish my once enemy a happy life. Then I'm confident that one day I will for those that I once loved so dearly, it will just take time. Possibly a long time. But, hope.

Love Always,
Thuy a.k.a Angel