Saturday, July 13th

Summer is shortening by the minutes, the hours, the day. There are still too many decisions still to make. Too many possiblities, but very few that would work completely. I'm reaching out towards a fog of darkness. Blindly searching. E s c a p e. But where to. . .

Its 1:11am for my hubby's time ^^, make a wish.

Is there one day. . where you'll forget me? Would my face fade along with old age? My heart tightens at the thought. What to do, what to think. I wish to read into your thoughts. See into the deepths of your heart. Time will always exist. Though long. . . and forever lasting.

It's Saturday

I miss him.
I think that explains everything, or at least. It should<3

School's Almost Over

So. School's almost over and there are still many things to be done. I took my SAT2 yesterday. It was hard >.> lol, but I'll live. I'm pretty relaxed at this moment of my life. But I'm sure I won't be by tomorrow. There are somethings that I am sooo over with. :] I hate to break it to those that want to bring me down, but I hold all the cards to play a mean game. I enjoy competition as much as anything else in my life. Yesterday could've been called for the 2nd worse day in my life. But I lived through it, and didn't let it get to me. I actually was sitting in the sun listening to my ipod and enjoying those moments to myself. While I thought about things. I shouldn't care. & I don't care. lol. It's a win. Sorry for bad first impressions, but I didn't live to be part of your expectations. I have mine. Ones that are much higher then what you can ever expect out of me. And this is what makes me win. Because I'm s t r o n g e r, and you're just playing in the dark now ;].

Let the summer begin.

Thoughts #3

As time tick by, I can't help but wonder what now. I miss you very much, indeed, that I do. Nothings the same without you here. It just seems very different. Hurry and come back, I'll be waiting..

<3

I miss you Anh.

Thoughts #2

Sitting here, currently listening to fruit's basket song on my xanga.

I don't know. I guess I understand this is how he feels, when I'm at school or out. There are too many thoughts can run through a person's mind. Sad ones, happy ones, or even .. lonely ones.

He'll be gone for a few days, but I feel like a piece of me is missing more then it already is. It reminds me of when he moved to Georgia, or when I escaped away to Vietnam for 3 weeks. Memories of how great it felt to be in contact at least with one person you love. Especially the one you love most is special.

I honestly envy many couples, who have the chance to embrace their lover, or just to see their love smile. I still have to wait. While others abuse and destory what little or any love that can be created between two human beings. I can't tell him enough, how much I love him each day. Even when we're together and spending time. I miss him dearly. I know when we'll be together in each other embrace and I'll have my head on his chest catching his fragile heartbeats. I'll still miss him. Because...
Ilovehim.

Thoughts #1 (5/5/09)

Have you ever thought that your life will turn out a certain way? You're sure that you'll get this or not? Well, indeed I think every human feels that way. Have you ever been bashed and accused of something? Even though you're the victim? Well, again I bet at some point any of us, have felt that way.

Anyways, I'm pretty much sick and tired of running into things, I don't want to deal with. Especially people that think they're the time of day. Sorry to inform you, but you're not the topic of my life. So. Fall back. All I can personally say is, it's been badluck ever since Saturday -.-. Seriously, I need a break, life is stressing me out if I have to deal with petty things.

But yeah, my day has been very long and tiring. Not sleeping soon as usual. I need to finish my photography stuff soon. I have the walk for hope this Saturday. My calender is listed on my damn myspace. So, if anyone happens to run into me, please, I can personally say. " I was here first." It takes patiences and control. Either I become the bigger person and play nice, or become the monster that certain indiviuals claim me as. Oh, I'll enjoy being the b*tch too.

But yeah, I miss him lots, :/. Hubby is sick :[ lol, hopefully he'll feel better soon. I just hate that I'm missing another weekend to do school related stuff. And not be with him. Good thing summer is coming up, I'm really over school. College needs to come soon. I can stress then. Anyways time to finish up homework, and read for class then bed.

Nights,
Thuy a.k.a Angel

The SAT (5/2/09)

I can't express how tired I really am. I woke up at 4 something in the morning, and the first thing came flashing to my mind is the SAT. The test was long, the minutes that passed by was longer. I mean really even till now I can't breath regularly. The anixety keeps building on me, now that I'm waiting for the test score. I saw Cindy and friends from school. That was well. Otherwise today has been a bad day.



"It's like flipping through old journals, skimming through old pictures. They're all faded." - Thuy

How do I feel about Testing?

So, I just finished taking the CSAT thingy. Or whatever the hell it's spelled lol. I'm super tired, and I still need to read chapter 26 of Grapes of Wrath. Can my day get any more boring? Geeze, I rather stay home and sleep & probably feel much smarter with my 8-10hrs of sleep rather then my 4-5 hrs on a weekday. I'm taking the SATs this weekend. Boy, am I a wreck? I need to cram. Big time. This is causing lots of stress and freaking me out. Because I keep wondering what score I'm going to get. I'm seeing my school counselor tomorrow, I have no idea what I'll tell her. I mean what college will I actually apply for? I need a job. Or someway to make money. >.> I can't depend on my parents. I need to find a way to survive. But I'm hanging on. Anywho I need to read nows :[. I hate school, don't you?

Love always,
Thuy a.k.a Angel

P.S. I miss my silly hubby a lot :/ . I'm thinking about you <3 :[ & I love you so ^^

Why does this remind me of Xanga?

Hello there,

I'm pretty bored right now. Despite the fact that I should be studying, I'm going to blog a bit. This whole thing x.x reminds me of xanga. A place to express and talk and talk D;. Anyways, I love to design. I plan to take a career on it. Anything designed by me go under Angel Productionz ©, but my brushes that are used, are found on http://www.deviantart.com/ . Any pictures that show up later on will be found on either that site, yahoo search images, photobucket. Or any where else stated.

- Thuy a.k.a Angel